The idea of me as a dad is so weird.
Shouldn’t there be some sort of vetting process to filter out people who shouldn’t be reproducing? Shouldn’t there be a mom and dad test you have to take to prove eligibility!
Having a child definitely is not something that happened to us by mistake. We’ve been excited about the idea of starting a family since we got married. And we’ve been doing our fare share to ensure this was a strong possibility, I won’t go into details, suffice it to say it took a while to hit.
In early January Mika’s grandmother passed away and she went to Japan to attend the memorial and to stay for a few weeks. Her family was sad, but at peace, she had lived a long and good life.
I always miss her when she’s away, but I’m an introvert and never mind some alone time.
A few weeks later I had had enough alone time and I happily picked up my wife from LAX on a Tuesday afternoon. I went back to work for the rest of the day while Mika did her best to sleep off her jet lag.
I knew my she would be exhausted and I offered to make dinner once I got home.
She was indeed a bit groggy when I got home. I changed out of my work attire and made my way to the kitchen, rolling up my sleeves.
I turned around as she called my name to find her approaching me with a stick in one hand and her cell phone on record in the other.
Part of me couldn’t believe it – my heart was racing – and the other part of me did it’s best to show neither fear nor emotion.
Clearly, showing no emotion didn’t work.
I’m Gonna Be A Dad!
The little Mogwai is set to join the waking world this September. I never thought I could be this utterly excited about the idea of a baby. I can’t wait to see her perdy little face.
I probably spend between three to six solid hours a day thinking about life as a dad and imagining this little baby girl I’ve never met – except remotely through kicks and hiccoughs.
- She gets quiet when we play her music and when I talk.
- We have a crib, a bassinet, a changing table, a bath, and a bunch of little clothes ready to go.
- We’ve attended two parenting classes and preregistered at our hospital.
- Her baby shower will be in about 3 weeks and we hope she stays in until then; it leaves us only one month of leeway for premature status; Mika is very small, babies are very big.
- We’re going on a small Mika’s Birthday Trip / Babymoon this weekend in Ventura for one final weekend of peace.
- My mom and dad offered to buy us some baby goods because they know how quickly this baby stuff adds up; we’re gonna need that stroller and the car-seat most of all and this is a combo dealio.
We’ve also been reorganizing our house; we had three of those Ikea dressers that have already killed five or six toddlers and were recalled in May. We took them back a few weeks ago and got a full refund, picked up a bookshelf, the changing table, and a desk, but we still need to get a new dresser – our clothes are in limbo.
At any rate, we’re in for a ride.
Every parent we talk with tells us to get as much sleep as possible while we still can.
So for now I’m just going to try to sleep.